Commitment

Do you ever find yourself able to commit to some things and not others? It's weird how some things in life are easy to commit to. For example; it was easy to commit to my husband, college, family, but other things, the most mundane of things can be the hardest to do.

All of this is leading up to, of course, the daily task of writing my thesis. I feel like I'm always thinking about writing, and I find myself worrying about it everyday, but I have a very hard time just sitting down and committing to it. What I have found out about myself is that I would rather be doing anything than writing a paper. In fact I would rather get groceries, take out the trash, clean the bathroom, do laundry, balance the checkbook, go to the dentist.... you get the idea.

What I have been praying for is that God will change my heart toward this very important task.

I know what has to be done and I can see a time in the very near future when I will be finished, but right now is where I am living and I must commit to the task.

All of this rambling has brought me to this point... without commitment one can not accomplish the job, whatever it may be, to the best and utmost of their ability. It is hard work and we shouldn't fear it but embrace it and continue, no matter how slowly.

So, I continue to pray that God will work on my heart and take the fear away and help me to commit to this project. I know that through Him, I can accomplish anything and after all, this paper is really for Him not me. I need it for my degree, but He needs it as a show of my love and commitment for Him!

God Bless

HB